The End. (long, sorry)

[Towelie]

I'm turning 20 on Friday.

My teenage years, those touted as the best of our lives, are at an end.

I've been doing a lot of thinking... too much thinking... which has always been my problem...

Despite failed relationships, severed friendships, countless rejections, misdeeds and dark days I have come to a conclusion.

I am totally and completely satisfied with the way my teenage years played out. Especially the past 2 years of my life, which have been better than I perhaps deserve. At 14 I was anti-social, irresponsible, only had a close circle of 4-5 friends, and couldn't for the life of me even talk to any girl I was attracted to. A few months ago, 5 years later, I had well over a dozen close friends, went to parties all the time, held a steady job and started living on my own, 150 miles from my parents.

On my 16th Birthday, I thought to myself... 4 years from now, when I turn 20 and my teenage years are at an end, what memories will I have to look back on? I realized then that I wasn't living life to its fullest. It was this that led me to be more outgoing, to be more social, to be open to new things, including drugs, to actually have the gall to ask-out the girls I was interested in.

But here I am at another crossroads. 4 years from now, where do I want to be? I have no idea. None. No matter how much I love my friends I cannot see us all hanging out in our mid-20s. I could be completely wrong, we could all be working steady jobs, paying rent, and hitting the bars together on the weekends, but at the moment I just don't see it. The only reason I am living in Orange County is because of my friends. A few years from now, if some chain of events led me to be completely fed-up with everyone, I'll probably ramble my way out. Where, I don't know. Anywhere from Phoenix, to Geneva.

A month ago I thought I'd be happy as ever, ready to start adulthood. But that all changed 2 weeks ago when my boss called me at home and told me I've been laid off from the only job I've ever enjoyed. At the time it didn't get me down too much. There were 5 other dealerships in the area, I had to find a job there. Two weeks later I haven't heard back from any of the places I applied to. Now I don't even have enough gas in my car to leave my home. Rent is due next week and to pay it I'll have to rely on the $500 check my rich-as-hell grandparents send me for my birthday, which is fucking pathetic. I've never been what you'd call depressed, but I haven't felt so.. lost... for YEARS. These past 2 years of unadulterated happiness have led me to the point where I don't know how to be upset. Because up to this point my attitude of "Everything is gonna turn out fine, you'll see" has been right. Now it seems that attitude may be my doom. I have no money, no gas, no job, and if my birthday money doesn't come within 2 weeks, it's possible that I'll have no home. I am lost. Not depressed, not upset, not sad, shameful, angry or regretful... just lost.

My first priority is to beg/borrow/steal money to put gas in my car to continue my job hunt. I am confident that with $20 worth of gas I should be able to find a decent job within the next couple days. Get rent paid, buy some groceries, pay off some debts, get back to where I was 2 months ago.

From there I am SERIOUSLY considering making a run for it sometime next spring. Save up as much money as I can, buy some rosetta stone software to learn German, try to find a job in Switzerland and move there, without telling my friends or family.

Oh well, like I said, I've just been thinking waaay too much, and needed somewhere to excrete the intellectual waste.

For anyone under the age of 18 who is reading this, there is always time to change the road you're on. (Just had to end with a Stairway lyric, eh?)

[Pltcl Sniper]

your 20 now, that means quit doing drugs, get a good job, maby college? Serious Relationship, no more fuckin around.

[Towelie]

As far as drugs are concerned I havent bought any weed for a month, and after getting clean I really don't feel any smarter or less apathetic. To be honest the opposite is true.

Getting a "a good job" is far easier said than done.

College is a no-no. I know myself too well. I'm not the education type. To get things done I need to have a goal. If I knew what I wanted in a career I'd be in college. If I go just for the sake of going I won't put in any effort and I'll flunk most of my classes. It'll be High School all over again. I got kicked out of High School my senior year because when the second semester started, by the 3-week progress-report I had 11 unexcused absences out of 15 days of school. Without a goal I have no motivation. With a goal, I can do anything. But figuring out what I want to do for a living the rest of my life isn't something I'm going to figure out anytime soon.

And as far as serious relationships go, I think that's exactly what I need to help keep me on track... but out here finding a girl that's worth the time/effort/money/drama is damned near impossible. But, I'll keep looking.

[FaKToR]

your 20 now, that means quit doing drugs, get a good job, maby college? Serious Relationship, no more fuckin around.
Actually none of those really follow from the fact that he just turned 20.

[proudinfidel117]

just find a couple easy part time jobs to get for now, the ones where they need anyone. one in the day, one at night will get you money quick, and will keep you afloat untill you can find a job that you like.

[Afro Joe]

Heh. I've got a year left and I want to make the best of it :)

My advice to you? Keep on keepin on.

[Col. Psycho]

you know what towelie? you are making me think. :| next february, i'll be into my 20's. its a scary thought. i dont know what to say, ive had so much experience with my life, to say goodbye to being a teenager will be a sad day. :(

here's to looking back at the good times, and getting ready for the times ahead. Towelie, your life will sort itself out, it has a way of doing that. life tends to knock you to the ground, and unless you fight back, you will stay on the ground. good luck with finding a new job and i hope everything turns out better for you.

[Yiggs]

Does anyobdy save? it seems like theres been quite a few threads where everyone is living on 20 bucks at one point and everything seems pretty fucked. What was your job?

[BattleWhack]

I'm 21 now, and I can barely remember my teenage years as a whole. More like bits and pieces, some really good, some really bad.

I'm glad I'm past that shit. Whoever said that your teenage years are the best in your life need to get shot. So far, being 20/21 have far outclassed my entire life to that point.

Towelie, you seem like you have a solid head on your shoulders, you're just in a little slump at the moment. Make your priorities, do what you have to to survive, and get back on track.

Good luck.

[BS87]

I recently turned 20. No spectacular event. No Epiphany. Just 1 more year closer to death and further from birth.

[PsychoMantis]

just find a couple easy part time jobs to get for now, the ones where they need anyone. one in the day, one at night will get you money quick, and will keep you afloat untill you can find a job that you like.

QFE

I know right now you want a job that pays better than 7.50/hour, but this may be your only chance. I wish I knew where the hell I was going with my life, college still feels like a waste of time even if I am learning.

[BlindSite]

Does anyobdy save? it seems like theres been quite a few threads where everyone is living on 20 bucks at one point and everything seems pretty fucked. What was your job?

Thats what I'm wondering about I've got 2 grand saved for a car and 1500 emergency money. If I lost my job tomorrow I could survive for a few months before needing a job.

[psycho chicken]

Save? Right now my finances are $15 in casino chips, about $20 in loose change in my tool box at work (lunchtime poker money, no gold coins) and $40 that I'll buy petrol with tomorrow. I'm scared to even look at my credit card statement.

Living week to week ROCKS.

[StandingCow]

You think your teenage years ending is scary... Im turning 27 in june... 3 years from 30 FUCKING YEARS OLD.

Not happy about that.

[Yiggs]

Y'know, as crazy as it sounds, I kind of wish I managed to get some sex at 14 years old. Now I'm 17. I'm never gonna be able to fuck a 14 year old again. :(

[Towelie]

Thats what I'm wondering about I've got 2 grand saved for a car and 1500 emergency money. If I lost my job tomorrow I could survive for a few months before needing a job.

Are you living with your parents?

I'm not so I have to pay, $600 rent, $80 utilities, cell-phone bill, all my own food, gas, etc.

Saving isn't easy when you're living from paycheck to paycheck and you need every dime just to have a roof over your head.

[FaKToR]

Are you living with your parents?

I'm not so I have to pay, $600 rent, $80 utilities, cell-phone bill, all my own food, gas, etc.

Saving isn't easy when you're living from paycheck to paycheck and you need every dime just to have a roof over your head.
California sucks.

[proudinfidel117]

shit rent is at least twice that here, for a one bedroom place too. :mad:

[BlindSite]

Are you living with your parents?

I'm not so I have to pay, $600 rent, $80 utilities, cell-phone bill, all my own food, gas, etc.

Saving isn't easy when you're living from paycheck to paycheck and you need every dime just to have a roof over your head.

Don't live in such a fucking expensive apartment then you douche. I can live in a 3 bedroom house for 300 a week/

[Towelie]

Don't live in such a fucking expensive apartment then you douche. I can live in a 3 bedroom house for 300 a week/

In Orange County, CA a one-bedroom studio apartment is 1k-1.2k per month.

I am renting a room in a four bedroom house for half that price. It's the cheapest way I can live close to my friends.

Where do you live infidel? I can't imagine a place more expensive than here.

[StandingCow]

He lives in another country, I don't think he thought of that... :)

Yea, living paycheck to paycheck would suck... not really sure what to tell ya...

[HodgeMASHEEN MkIII]

Y'know, as crazy as it sounds, I kind of wish I managed to get some sex at 14 years old. Now I'm 17. I'm never gonna be able to fuck a 14 year old again. :(
I feel ya there man haha :o

[BlindSite]

In Orange County, CA a one-bedroom studio apartment is 1k-1.2k per month.

I am renting a room in a four bedroom house for half that price. It's the cheapest way I can live close to my friends.

Where do you live infidel? I can't imagine a place more expensive than here.

About twenty mins from brisbane, highest priced residential area in the state other than the CBD. Then again, I probably work more hours and get paid more than you did.

[Towelie]

About twenty mins from brisbane, highest priced residential area in the state other than the CBD. Then again, I probably work more hours and get paid more than you did.

I was asking proudinfidel, hence the "Where do you live infidel?"
:menkey:

[BlindSite]

Out of curiosity what is your hourly rate for a 20 year old.

Out here I'm on I think 15.80 or something an hour, plus I get paid commission.

[Towelie]

Out of curiosity what is your hourly rate for a 20 year old.

Out here I'm on I think 15.80 or something an hour, plus I get paid commission.

I was only getting paid $9.25 an hour, so I usually worked 50 hour weeks, getting time and a half for every hour over 40.

But my roommate is trying to get me a job at a dealership he knows the owner of. He said I can get a job in the parts department making around $15 an hour.

[Gopats]

Y'know, as crazy as it sounds, I kind of wish I managed to get some sex at 14 years old. Now I'm 17. I'm never gonna be able to fuck a 14 year old again. :(
muhahaha


jk, 90% of 14 year olds are prude as hell

5% you gotta date them for a year to bone them

5% are skanks D:

[BlindSite]

muhahaha

jk, 90% of 14 year olds are prude as hell

5% you gotta date them for a year to bone them

5% are skanks D:

5% is still a good number.

[Wallrod]

Yeah, i'm 20 in a few weeks myself. I'm not really as satisfied, as i spent most of my teen ages dealing with social ineptitude, but that's not much of an issue any more. In a way i think my personality means i wouldn't have got as much out of my teenage years as i would out of my twenties or thirties. Things are looking pretty good for me so far and only seem to be improving. Life and fun can't end at 20, you just have to learn to deal with being responsible at the right times.

[redgun]

Out of curiosity what is your hourly rate for a 20 year old.

Out here I'm on I think 15.80 or something an hour, plus I get paid commission.

I'm getting 15 EUR per hour which converts to about 20 USD or 25 australian $ i guess.

[BS87]

yay GG i've been in the same place for 3 years, am nationally certified, and i make 8.72 and hour. And if i fuck up, ehhh you might die.

[proudinfidel117]

In Orange County, CA a one-bedroom studio apartment is 1k-1.2k per month.

I am renting a room in a four bedroom house for half that price. It's the cheapest way I can live close to my friends.

Where do you live infidel? I can't imagine a place more expensive than here.

Try Santa Barbara :D
for a one bedroom apartment :mad:
you either own your own house here, or rent an apt.

He lives in another country, I don't think he thought of that... :)

Yea, living paycheck to paycheck would suck... not really sure what to tell ya...

:mad: yes, yes I did. He sure doesnt live in my county, i can at least figure that out :gun:

<3...maybe

[proudinfidel117]

Not to rub it in, but I'll be moving into a three bed room house, with two baths and a study and a two car garage in august for 900 a month....

is it just you living there or are you sharing payments?

[Towelie]

Not to rub it in, but I'll be moving into a three bed room house, with two baths and a study and a two car garage in august for 900 a month....

Need a roommate?

[StandingCow]

It'll be me and my younger brother, splitting it. So I'll only be paying 450 a month.

I hate you!! :D <3

I pay 1,200 a month for 2 bedroom 1 bath. Fuck you NJ!!!

[HarryB]

You quickly learn that the teens are overrated once you leave them. Trust me, there is nothing about my teens that I give to shits about now that I'm past 20.

[Moe_Rahn]

This thread reminds me how much I love living in Missouri.

Right now my place is 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom, $325/month (split with a roommate). In August, I'll be moving into a house with 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, $640 a month, split four (possibly five) ways.

[IchWarriorMkII]

I really didn't give a fuck about my teenage years...

... don't miss em, don't see life changing, whateva.

By 20 I have amassed a fucking huge collection of toys, so now Im working on getting my pad squared away. Maybe get some long term investment vehicles going so I don't rely entirely on company pension when Im old and crusty.

[Shloom]

18 now...working on getting my GED and a job.




The parties seem to get better the older I get, I just ditched my old group of friends for a much drunker louder group of folks I lost touch with years ago. Instead of 30 kids drinking in a basement now its 200 with a band and strippers.

[Towelie]

now its 200 with a band and strippers.

Sounds like my house last friday.

'twas a rager to be remembered, however fuzzy those memories may be.

[neko]

If you want free gas you could be an asshole about it and go to Wal-Mart and buy a $8 siphoning kit. Me and my friends did that and got a total of 10 gallons (most modern cars make it impossible for you to siphon gas from them apparently)!

[Gopats]

Yeah its impossible to do on newer cars

[Psyche]

This thread reminds me how much I love living in Missouri.

Right now my place is 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom, $325/month (split with a roommate). In August, I'll be moving into a house with 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, $640 a month, split four (possibly five) ways.

heh yea, i'm moving into a 2 bedroom 2 bath for 575/mo in florissant spilt 2 ways. there were some 4 bedroom houses going for 900/mo around here. the only problem is once you leave this area it's the richy st louis suburbs and it's more expensive